Sunday, March 29, 2015

Thankful & Happy.

Those are two words I won't let myself go a day without thinking. I've always been a positive person and someone who doesn't like to bring out negative energy. My friends would tell me I'm the happy one, my roommates in college never understood why I wouldn't have anything negative to say. Well, that's how I've always been and why I am who I am today. I enjoy being positive and thinking positive. It not only helps me and what I'm going through but it also brings out positivity in others. Despite what happens in your life never let it take control on how you live your life. Be who you are and never let that go. I may have been dealt a bad hand but I know I will win this game. Here I am, at 25, and in my first week of chemotherapy and radiation. Is that something that is going to take over my life? No. Is it something that is going to control me? No. I will fight this and come out strong, I know I can. You should always have a positive mind set and believe in the best outcome. 

This week I wore my lucky hat & saw a rainbow when I left the hospital. Good luck? I think so!

My first day of treatment was Wednesday March 25th. I didn't know what to expect, more than anything I was scared and nervous. I started radiation that afternoon. After talking with the doctors my heart was pounding like no other, my palms were sweaty and I felt sick to my stomach. Since it's a brain tumor and treatment is centralized on my head I'm required to wear a face mask that was custom made. That way my head is in the exact same position each time the procedure is done. The actual radiation part of the visit doesn't take long, only about 5-10 minutes from start to finish. As I finished my first round it was a sigh of relief and I spent the rest of the day relaxing at home just in case I were to have any side effects. I got to watch my favorite shows and snack on my favorite foods. Later that night I got ready to take my first dose of Temodar, the drug for my chemotherapy. Luckily, my chemo treatment is bottled into a small pill that I'm able to take from home everday. That night was pretty hard and I woke up constantly. More than anything I think it was from nervousness and not knowing how my body would react to it. Everything turned out well and surprisingly I never got nauseous (which is a very common side effect to the medication). That morning was the first time in awhile that I have felt relieved. I made it. My first day was done. The next two days were very similar and I took it easy. Despite the fact I take the Temodar everyday I only have radiation Monday-Friday, which means I have Saturday and Sunday off each week! Yesterday my family took a trip to the Oregon Zoo for my brothers birthday. Not only was it a beautiful day but we had a great time. I was able to be there the whole time and the only thing that made it a little hard was my fatigue. But if thats all then I will take it!
Today I feel about the same, however, I am getting pain in my joints which is another side affect of Temodar. I feel it a little in my wrist and ankles but mostly in my shoulders. It's definitely something I can handle and I'm not complaining! So today I took it pretty easy and just ran a couple errands with my cousin. She is not only my closest friend but the girl who is always there for me. I feel so lucky to have her by my side through everything. Cheers to a beautiful "Sunday Funday" and just remember "A person can change their future by merely changing their attitude."


  1. I have been thinking of you this week and I am so happy to read this! I am glad you are positive! That will definitely help you through this. So happy you have all the people there holding you up.

  2. Ashley your blog is really uplifting! I will continue to pray for you and your family! The pictures are so cute! Take care :)

  3. Beautifully written. You are such a strong and beautiful soul inside and out. I always thought that about you. I'm sending healing thoughts your way.

  4. Just wanted to let you know that someone is using your pics in a fraud account on fb I have reported the account



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