Monday, March 20, 2017

Little Baby Bell.


Little baby Bell is coming this September! I feel so happy to be sharing this with all of you and still can't believe it is actually happening. As of right now I am about 14 weeks, so we have a lot to catch up on! Having a baby is something both Carter and I have been wanting for a while, we love kids! But with our lives and what was going on it was hard to even make that happen. Baseball has always made us hold back on starting a family, along with that we wanted to wait until he finished up his degree at Oregon State. Since he was drafted his junior year he's always had about a year of school left. This past year {or so} he started classes again and is just about done and graduating in June!

As for me, all my health problems have been a big issue. My doctors have told me from day 1 that I can have children but actually carrying them myself could be dangerous. Since pregnancy causes a crazy release in hormones and body changes it could potentially give my cancer cells a boast in growth and development. So we have always had that in the back of our minds. But me being me and the kid lover I am, having a baby and the experience of doing it outweighs the risk of what could happen. Having kids has always been my biggest dream and probably why I ended up with a degree in child development! Even if I only get to experience this one time it will be something I never regret. Along with that, I am so lucky because I have one of my closest friends and a cousin who have BOTH volunteered to be my surrogated, if needed. I still can't believe they would do that and it shows me how much love and support they both have.

Aside from all of that this pregnancy has been hard. I have kind of mentioned it in the past but never really talked about it. Since it's been a couple of years now and with a baby on the way I feel okay talking about it. Back in the Fall of 2014 we had found out I was pregnant for the first time. This was not expected but we were still so excited. About two weeks after hearing the good news we found out my cancer was back and had been slowly growing for a couple of months. This was devastating because I would either have to go through chemo while pregnant or take a huge risk of waiting then going straight into treatment after I had the baby. It was only a couple weeks after that when I had the miscarriage. That was one of the hardest things I've ever gone through. To make things worse I knew I was going to have to start my cancer treatment shortly after. Looking back I think it was meant to happen for a reason. But after going through that it has been hard and even scary to think about loosing a baby again. On top of that doctors thought it would be a lot harder to even conceive after going through chemo and radiation.
But sure enough it happened and we have finally gotten some GOOD NEWS and are so excited!

While the good is definitely out weighing the bad, things haven't been easy with this pregnancy. I am already at high-risk for everything I have gone through but on top of that I found out some issues I have that have nothing to do with my cancer or anything related to that. I honestly don't feel ready to deeply talk about that yet BUT I thought I would share because the more prayers and good wishes the more confident I feel and believe it truly does help. I have been hesitant on sharing this and even the fact I'm pregnant but feel like the love and prayers outweigh not sharing it and keeping it in. So thank you to everyone, I greatly appreciate it!
As of right now the baby is growing and looking amazing! As for me... I have been MIA and spending most my time at home... which is good! That just means the baby is developing and things are right on track so I will definitely take it. This past week the nausea is getting better and I can actually get out of the house so hopefully the symptoms continue to decrease as the weeks increase!

I wanted to share what's been going on each week with the symptoms I've been having:

Weeks 1-4
Boobs were hurting
SO tired!... Which was the reason I decided to take a pregnancy test!

Week 5
Still about the same
+ the nausea started coming

Weeks 6-8
Boobs still hurting
Even more tired
Morning Sickness ALL DAY sickness
Sense of smell went crazy, was not prepared for that lol

Weeks 8-10
Still about the same
Aside from nausea my appetite increased big time

Weeks 10-13
Nausea only in the morning and a little a night
Boobs not feeling as sore
Still pretty tired

*Cravings? Haven't had that many... more than anything I've just been non stop hungry and wanting food more than ever. I will say this though, I have been wanting lemonade every single day, multiple times a day... did anyone else have this? I've also been pretty into Chick-fil-A lol their cobb salad has been a highlight to my afternoons

*Weight gain? Give or take 5 pounds

*Physical changes? Well, comparing the "old wives tales" with the way my body is going I have a feeling baby Bell is going to be a girl! Along with the horrible morning sickness I have gotten a crazy breakout on my face {it hasn't been like this since puberty! ek} and {I hate to say it...} but, I've been a pretty moody girl and feeling grumpy... SORRY CARTER! haha

This has been a lot to share on just one post but I will start doing weekly ones now that I'm feeling much better and have announced the big news! If you have any questions you are welcome to comment below or e-mail me! *which is on the contact page!

THANK YOU again to everyone for being so positive with all the love and support on yet another crazy journey for the Bell family!


  1. Keeping you and the family in my prayers!

  2. We have a few things in common. I also lost my first pregnancy to a miscarriage. With Joe, I drank a ton of lemonade. He weighed 9 lbs., 10 ozs., so try not to drink as much lemonade as I did! Lol! My prayers for you, Carter & Baby Bell are with you daily!

  3. I am so happy for you all. God bless and you are in my prayers

  4. Congrats Ashley! You will be an amazing mom! I loved lemonade with Kenley, which was funny because I did not like it before. Hopefully the morning sickness will go away soon.

  5. So happy for you guys! I must have had a sympathy pain, been craving lemonade all week! So exciting for your entire clan :) Will be following along with prayers!

  6. Huge congratulations on this new journey for the Bell family!!! Prayers that everything continues to go smoothly and healthy! You will be a wonderful mom! Love to you all!

  7. Congratulations!! Definitely hoping for all the best for you three :)

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